To my love with love...

Sometimes some people come in your life and touch you in that special way that it doesn't remain the same anymore. One finds words incapable of expressing the feelings that he goes through. I used to wonder what actually happens, what drives a person to such a state; but was never able to find an answer. Until now. I realise now the emotions, the thoughts that one undergoes.

It all started when I got introduced to her for the first time, at first I didn't find anything special about her but still there was something which made me be with her for the initial days. I didn't have a clue what I was getting into at first, I could never imagine how my life would be with her in the future. Still I continued not wondering about the results, not caring about the future, just enjoying the moment I was with her. I never realised when I started making time to be with her, I felt good being with her. I felt a connect between us, something which I had never felt before. The more I came to know about her, the more I started liking her. I was able to be more true to myself in front of her than I was with everybody else, I felt comfortable being with her. Then came 'the' moment when I realised that I could not live without her, I wanted to be with her everytime. I wanted to be a part of her world, I wanted to live in it. It seemed now that my life revolved around her, I couldn't even think for a moment without thinking about her. I could see my whole future with her.

I started dreaming about her. I thought about her when I woke up, when I ate, when I drank. I kept thinking about her during the lectures, professors words kept on reminding me about her. I thought about the things we did yesterday, the moment we spend together, about the things that I would do in the future in the lecture. I thought about her during lunch, during dinner....I used to think about her every moment when I was not with her. I was having a great time being with her and I hoped that it would remain like this forever. It felt as if we are destined to be together. But the cruel hand of fate didn't think so.

We got separated. I am now lonely without her. I always try to be in contact with her. But it doesn't feel the same, I miss her a lot now. I remember the old days and try to comfort myself thinking about those. The desire to be with her increases day by day, but I know I have to control myself because my future depends on it. This self restraint would gurantee me a future that I have always wanted. Something which would make us both happy. So I guess I have to live with it.
God, I miss GAMING...and nobody does gaming here in IIMC :-(